So, my chiropractor tested me in his way, and I seem to have both male and female reproductive organs. He is looking for a specialist for me to get an actual medical test done, some sort of ultrasound or something. Having this information is quite the relief, and also quite the burden. It's a relief because I know that there is actually something causing my feelings; but a burden because I have no one to confide in. I'm utterly alone. I've never fit in anywhere socially in my life because of my gender disphoria, so try as I might, I don't really have friends, just a couple of closer people that I know from college. I could confide in them, perhaps, but they always have seemed too busy in the past when I've tried to do less. Why then, should I try to confide in them with something like this, despite my utter need for a friend right now? So this is me, pacing the halls waiting for my next class, deep in the despair of being alone and not fully knowing what to do.
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