So, its been a while since I've posted anything, and with some luck I'll be in a mindset where I can post some more of what has been going on in my life of late.
The reason I haven't been able to post anything lately is that my despair and sadness with being the wrong gender of late has been so much that I haven't been able to do more than make it to work and hope that time will pass, and with the passing of time, perhaps the deep sorrow will lessen and there will be a time again where many of the things you did before would once again be enjoyable. Now, I'm sure you are saying to yourself..."wait, doesn't this just sound like depression?" In a sense yes, but overall I would say no. I've experienced depression in my life, true clinical deression and have been on meds for it. This is so much different, the sorrow, the pain, the ripping despair of it all...it is now quantifiable, unlike the depression where there is no deffinition to the emptiness. Yes, depression is a part of the pain of gender identity dissorser, but it is merely a symptom and not a cause in anyway. The depression a despair of gender identity dissorder stems from truely feeling you are the opposite gender than the body you are in is telling you that you are.
